Oh It's On!!

That's right! My favorite guilty pleasure, "Rock of Love" is back on and it's even trashier. In all honesty though... I miss Heather aka Tatters! I mean, each week at elimnation I was on the edge of my seat to see what sort of Vegas- stripper dress she would be wearing.

Tuesday's Rotation, Back from Vacation

The following rotation came from a friend of mine with outstanding musical taste. ENJOY!:

Apparently, I'm in the mood to listen to the bands that would have been in heavy rotation had I had a college radio show in the 90's. Granted, there would have also been a lot of the Cure/Depeche Mode/the Smiths/Morrissey/Joy Division/New Order and the Trash Can Sinatras. But rather than go that obvious, here are 5 other songs that I would have played:

1) "Be My Light, Be My Guide" - Gene: it was a bonus track on the US edition of "Olympian", and probably my favorite song on the album.

2) "If I Can't Change Your Mind" - Sugar (on "Besides"): I can't tell you the number of times I listened to this after telling some guy how I felt about him and getting turned down.

3) "Our Story" - The JudyBats (from the album "Down in the Shacks Where the Satellite Dishes Grow"): late 80's/early 90's alt-rock band from Tennessee, they were definitely a college radio station kind of band. It was hard for me to pick just 1 song by them - I still listen to all their albums. But I went with this, because there are few things that say boarding school/liberal arts college chick teen-angst than "I want you, but I really want to leave you too."

4) "Soul and Fire" - Sebadoh (from "Bubble & Scrape"): Sad. The end of a relationship. The lead singer, Lou Barlow, put out an album called "Emoh" a couple years ago - I recommend that as well.

5) "I Can't Escape from You" - The The (from "Hanky Panky"): a whole cover album of Hank Williams songs. So good. I love Matt Johnson's vocals.

Two honorable mentions:

a) also check out "Down in the Shacks Where the Satellite Dishes Grow" by the JudyBats- one of my all time favorite song lines: "I'm sorry but when I left you, you were an asshole, on those cold nights when you were out there, running 'round with your drunk friends"

b) "True Happiness This Way Lies..." on Dusk by The The: The intro is too true, but spoken, so I left that song off. Still, who hasn't felt like this? "Have you ever wanted something so badly that it possessed your body and your soul through the night and through the day until you finally get it? And then you realize that it wasn't what you wanted after all. And then those self-same, sickly little thoughts now go and attach themselves to something, or somebody, new. And the whole goddamn thing starts all over again."

Damn - now I'm all nostalgic. I want to go and dig out some mix cassette tapes from boarding school and college...

Cougar or Hyena

Something very new has happened to me recently. I am not sure whether to it a trend quite yet or not and I am also not sure how comfortable I am with this occurrence. Basically, in the laws of the dating jungle, am I a cougar or a hyena?

I have just returned from a trip abroad. It was a wonderful experience and along the way I encountered many men and many boys. At this point in my dating career I am an expert on boys. However, meeting men on this trip was a new experience for me. While on my journey, I came to the conclusion that is was time for me to hang up the boys and try focusing on hanging out with some men. However, sometimes, when you make a decision about changing the path of your life, it can be difficult to embark down that road less traveled.

Right when I made this very adult decision, I came across a lovely man, a native of the country in which I was traveling. He was a great conversationalist, wearing an impeccable suit. He was smart and interested in speaking with me. I was so excited that I had made my decision and that I was embarking down this new road. And then... he left.

Now, if any of you reading this actually knows me, then you will know that I am the kind of person that must have instant gratification. So, when my first venture in to the adult world, did not pan out, well... I kind of lost interest in the venture. Furthermore, the night was still young and my traveling companion and I were not interested in packing it in for the evening.

We stuck around and hung out a bit longer with the adult's friends and wouldn't you know it, I happened to hit it off with another one of the guys in the group. This guy was an old standard of mine and by that I mean he was a boy... 22 years old a recent college graduate and to top it all off... the kid was a bookie. Yeah... well... where I was traveling, this was not an illegal endeavor.

Needless to say I forget about my foray in to male adults and proceed to carry on with this very young, very cute, very tall but not so bright little boy. The night goes on, a few bottles of champagne are passed around and then I am on my way back to his place for something else that I am familiar with at this point... meaningless, alcohol induced bad sex. The next day, I wake up, grab a cab home and that is the end of it.

This brings me to another recent event. That event being the alcohol saturated, meaningless holiday, New Years Eve. I was hanging out with friends, having a great time but considering heading home to polish off the rest of the chips and dip from our party. Then this kid starts dancing with me and chatting me up. An adorable kid, this one, but definitely a kid! 24 to be exact. This was a completely unsolicited occurrence. So... the kid is in to me and well... I am sort of in to him and well... you know where this is going, right? I mean, I had spoken with many "men" throughout the evening, but this kid was the only one I actually engaged.

The thing is, I have never really attracted younger guys. Old guys... they love me. I am not sure when or how things shifted in my sexual life, but apparently they have. What is it with this new demo? Is this how women become cougars? It just sort of happens? I mean, is there a demo of men that all of a sudden are attracted to older women? Is this a trend I am facing or just a fluke? Whichever or whatever it is, I don't want to embrace it.

I voiced my concern with a very wise friend of mine. This friend also happened to be there when both above initial instances occurred. This friend told me that I should not worry, that I wasn't the cougar. A cougar selects it's prey. I, on the other hand was more like... well... chum???

So, as long as I remember that a cougar is a predator and really... I don't have the time or energy for that, I think I will be ok. Actually, I think I am more of a Hyena. You know, traveling in a pack, laughing all day long over a shared meal... yes... I am much more of a Hyena.

With all of this said, if my next partner is under 24 years of age, I might have to reevaluate some things in my life. Until then, the search for adults continues...